One Sided Love
One Sided Love
by Statexofxclarity
Isn't that what people say?
That one-sided love is the hardest.
Always like a master handling his puppet.
Always like a kid playing with a toy.
Love is said to be the greatest feeling.
Perfect in its own way.
Yet flawlessness doesn't exist.
So there must be an error.
The mistake of a one-sided love.
The way that love is warm, it is the same way cruel.
Though it may be a blessing.
It leaves behind a victim to suffer.
In this case, me.
You have no idea what you left me with.
All the memories you threw away, I chose to gather.
The thoughts of you walking away.
The question of why I wasn't good enough?
Self doubt which refused to fade.
Each and every tear fell for you.
I spent hours in the rain...in the dark.
The only places I could reach for comfort.
The only shadows that taught me to escape...
Just for a little while.
And all the wishes wasted on you.
The whispers I choked out into the night.
The times where I could hardly breathe...
Just because you were you.
Just because you broke into my heart.
Just because.
Well...now I'm tired.
To a certain point where I can't stand you.
So take the chains off of me.
Take all the things I've done for you.
Consider them my last.
And still you won't know how precious...
My heart was in the care of your hands.
Goodbye.
I say a one-sided love lacks faith.
That this kind of love can't clash with destiny.
And that love might mean something delicate and pretty...
In the beginning.
However, just like a rose...
Everything beautiful has to wither and die...
In the end.
And this is the conclusion of this one-sided love story.
Heavenly to tragic.
But don't people also say that, to a finish there is another start.
So hope shouldn't fail or diminish.
As these petals of pain disappear.
Love will bloom once again.
This will always and forever be fate.
credits to: http://www.best-love-poems.com
...explains how i feel...
A Very Important Lesson..
Have you done something that you got caught in the act?
This question has been asked during our Bible Study at CYF but I didn't get the courage to answer that I was once caught cheating when I was in Grade 3 by my classmates. Since I was an honor student, my teacher would not believe that I would cheat. Hmm.now that I think of that incident.. I think I cheated for 2 reasons.. one because I didn't get to study..the second was to feel what it was like to cheat...
I found out that it was not nice...
Hmmm..tonight..I got caught in the act too... When I was in my 3rd year high school, I clearly promised myself and to God not to indulge in lust or anything with sexual content that will ever corrupt my mind. I loved reading pocketbooks until I got to read books with sexual content....you know those... time came when I really was into those books... but I was guilty after reading them...
They corrupted my mind and my relationship with God because those books can take the time you set aside from God. Aside from that, they promote premarital sex which is against the law of God.
And so, I asked for permission and vowed not to ever read those again. I told God to do everything in His power just to stop me from reentering into those things again..
until tonight...
These past few days I've been worse..worst in fact..
Maybe it is out of boredom that I go back those stuff...
There were a lot of things that God did about it.. a lot just to keep me from reading or indulging myself in those stuff...but I think I was just so hard-headed and I just wouldn't listen to Him...
until I was watching a music video....in the middle of the music video...a picture appeared.. a picture of a guy and a girl having sex but only their heads were shown.. but it was quite obvious what they were doing...
my mom suddenly opened the door in my room and saw that.
~owwwww~~
it was like caught in the act but not really in the act, which is much more worse I believe...
awww..now how I wish I could undo things...haay...
God really did keep His promise of doing everything to keep me away from it.
And since it's hard for me to listen to Him, He used another plan.
Now I'm super duper guilty...
I feel like the worse person living...the fithiest...horrible..horrible..
I hate asking forgiveness because I'm embarrassed with God already for doing this sin over and over again. But I know I need to. And I need to mean it.
God needs to know that I will never want to engage in this stuff ever again.
And I mean EVER AGAIN!! *until I get married*=)
sorry...sorry..i'm so sorry...
i feel so shameful..
